Il try and keep it brief, he’s a good dad and looks after DD age 3.5 one day a week as do I with her going to nursery outside of that as we both work. He knows I want another and hasn’t been preventing it. We have had 2 losses in the last 2 years also. I’m 41, he’s 44 and he has said he doesn’t mind either way. I’ve seen other posts where people have said both people should be v keen. I know it would be me who would do the bulk of child rearing/ household things tho he does step up when asked. Thats it though I do have to ask quite a lot. Every Sunday morning for example is the same. He wants to watch his tv show and expects her to occupy herself not paw all over him. I go out for a walk as I am doing now. I have said yes watch your show but get her some painting/ bracelet making etc to do, she can the occupy herself for a wee while but you do need to input. Small example but happens constantly. I don’t have family support nearby so do rely on nursery also. I suppose what I’m saying is I’m acutely aware that this won’t get easier. Do I look after myself and be thankful for the one I do have and know I can cope as I need to be honest and say he doesn’t live up to the standards I had hoped for though he’s good and maybe my standards are too high. Or continue with my eyes open knowing what’s ahead. In my head which also may be unrealistic is that in the long run even with an age gap 2 will be “easier” than one also