I'm sorry I just need to vent. I'm 39 and I have a 6 month old son, and 2 daughters, 12 and 14. My husband is a chef and works shifts. I have an elderly mum who lives nearby. I also have type 1 diabetes and I'm a nurse, currently on maternity leave. I am just feeling completely overwhelmed! I'm breastfeeding and cosleeping as our little boy had such bad reflux so that is pretty full on. My 14 year old has mental health problems, is under CAMHs, is self-harming and doesn't attemd school full time and I am worried about her, and her future. My mum is starting to get muddled and off, isn't in good health and is losing alot of weight. I just feel like I am stretched to thin at the moment and am not able to help everyone in the way I should be (because I have a little baby). Our house is a mess, I have no routine, I am constantly anxious and worried about everyone else but feel useless. My mum keeps hoarding paperwork and I can't get her to sort it out and it's getting out of hand. And also I have a brother who recently came out of prison who used to abuse my mum and is a druggy and he has started calling me to try to get to my mum - which I won't let him obviously but I am just getting to the point where I am exhausted and want to run away from it all. Which I obviously won't because I love my family but I feel I can't breathe and I feel like I am letting everyone down. My 14 year old has had issues with school since year 6 and is now in year 10 and I am exhausted from fighting her corner and the system. I helped my mum get away from my brother and then I also tried to help him when he was homeless but he's very unstable and I ended up suffering from trying to support him. Our baby will only sleep on me or in the buggy/car. He wakes up a lot at night to feed so I haven't slept for 6 months, which I k ow cam be normal but on top of everything else I'm cracking. Sorry for rant. Just needed to say it all out loud.