Hello,
I’m looking for some words of encouragement/ positive stories of returning to work after maternity leave.
I started thinking about having to go back to work when my baby was 6 months, I felt sad and upset but slowly tried to get used to the idea that by 9 months I’d be back in work, I’ve felt better about it until this last week I’ve been experiencing a tight feeling in my chest, not all day long but I know this to be anxiety for me.
I can’t pin point exactly what’s making me anxious but when I think about it I just seem to be getting panicked and upset. I’ve had a lovely maternity leave and really enjoyed every part of becoming a mum. I wouldn’t say I don’t want to go back to work as I’m also working towards my masters and would love a career as well but I’m not going back to my dream job, it’s literally to pay the bills until I finish my masters so maybe it’s that as well.
Bit of background: Baby will me with my mum one day and my partners mum the other and my uni day he’ll be at home with me or with my mum (depending on how I go)
I know I’m so so lucky that it’s only part time and that it’s free. I’d love to be able to go back full time for the full time wage but the cost of the childcare would mean I’d work the hours to pay for his hours in nursery so for me it seems pointless. I feel the other mums in my work might comment as they’re on reduced days or 4 days. I don’t know why I’m even worrying about outsiders opinions either. Again I just feel anxious and hoping it’ll go away once I’m back in the swing of it! I’m dreading people even asking after my son (which is a nice thing) because I’m embarrassed I’ll burst into tears or something?
So yeah any tips on getting prepared or anyone who felt the same and things go better send them my way. Thanks in advance xx