So... This is my first post. And I'm nervous to make it. I have a 2 and a half year old daughter. She's non verbal. Suspected autism. But this is besides the point. We still live with her father. Technically most would call it a relationship. But it's not. It hasn't been a proper one in almost 3 years. I get verbally insulted and talked down about each and every day. This morning he litterly confirmed that he don't even see me as a human, and I'll quote "you're just some idiot who's leeching off me all the time". Oh yeah I suppose this is a good time to say I'm a stay at home mom too. He never helps me. Never tries to spend time with either of us unless he has to. Never let's me have a break. I get 1 shower a week and he will moan about having to watch her for those 15 minutes. I get insulted daily. I get threatened to get thrown out every few days. And I've just about had enough. Issue is, all my family and friends live in another country. See I'm not originally from here. So I have no support network. I have 1 friend. A single friend. Who's luckily agreed that if I really want to can bring my daughter along and stay with him. Only issue is his house isn't entirely child friendly. He is known for smoking weed. As far as I know he does it indoors at some points. He would air it out in advance if I decide to go. And only do it outside after. I struggled getting a job before I was even a parent and could apply to any job out there with no limitations. Now it's be near impossible. So these are my choices. I either stay in an emotionally abusive relationship if you can call it that for atleast several more years. Or until it kills me. Or I take a chance with my friend. But neither are optimal and I simply don't know what option is better.