As the thread title suggests, I'm so deep in the throes of another health anxiety scare that I'm convinced my 1 year old DS has leukaemia/lymphoma because he has some lymph nodes up in his neck and on the back of his scalp. He's full of a cold. I've spent all day feeling them and googling and haven't been able to eat through fear.
This really is ruining my life. I feel like I just can't breathe and I feel like I can never enjoy my two children because I'm so petrified that something is going to happen to them and I'll lose them if I feel happy and look forward to things.
This all stems from when my DS caught meningitis at 4 weeks old and I thought he was going to die. I've never felt so helpless and numb. He made a full recovery but it's got to the point my anxiety now makes me think that maybe it would something like lymphoma all along and they misdiagnosed.
I'm a shell of myself and I miss the old me. I just want to be able to enjoy my children. I'm on 50mg sertraline but I hate how it makes me feel.
Please can anyone offer me some light into how I can move past this even enough to function? I'm really desperate.
Many thanks if you read this far!