I told my DDDDDH I shouldn't have had kids

[NotABanana]

Someone has just told me it is normal for kids to fight, hers do all the time, and I will be fine.

Mine were fighting within minutes of being picked up from school. DS1 in tears. DD in a strop. DD kicks DS2 for not walking fast enough.

At home DS1 teases DS2. Ds1 calls DS2 stupid so DS2 hits him.

I was that close to smashing all the bloody cars up.

Have been down for a couple of weeks now and just feel not up to the job, anymore. If I ever was.

And yet, who do they want at bed time and school pick up time?

Kids were in bed by about 6.20 though DS1 came out of his room several times for the toilet and was messing about in his room.

HSFAY - nothing there to offend me!

Always trying star charts and reward plans, etc but it all boils down to the fact that I am so exhausted I can't do more than survive the day and am in a vicious cycle that I find hard to get out of and stay out.

Actually when I was having a run of bad days like you are saying, it was the feeling of being on a treadmill and not getting anywhere that was so draining. So I'd set myself just one achievement to do each day so that I would feel like something was completed.
So it might be something mundane like clean the fridge. If all else fails that is going to be your finished job for the day.
Or it might be to cook you and dh a nice meal on Friday night and that can be your weekly target.
And write them down so that you can see the achievement.
At the moment you are running round for everyone else so you need to set goals for yourself to stop the time just floating.
Start very simple and see if it works for you.
And it will get easier as your littlest gets older.
Above all else be kind to yourself as you hold the family together.
Nice bubble bath and a long soak works for me but find your own nirvana at the end of a week.
Big hugs

Thank you.

Very today for all sorts of reasons.

I need to get organised. I need a job list for what needs doing every day and waht can be done less often but when do I get chance to sit and do them?

Baby going to bed soon and then it will be get as much cleaning done as possible. Kitchen is priority today.

Dinner planned so one less pressure.

If your own childhood was 'horrendous' then you are probably waaay over-sensitive about your dc's childhood. I suspect this because I am too. 3 dcs are bound to be challenging, and it is a vicious cycle as the more stressed and tired you are then - the more stressed and tired you get. Could your dh give you a 'day off' to recharge and reboot?

True.

Dh is fab and I can have free time whenever I want it at the weekend but the down side is no time with DH then. At least we have an extra day together this weekend.