So. Tired.

[FirstT1meMum]

Not even sure why I'm posting anything, think I just need to shout into the void maybe.
I've not slept properly for months now. My soon to be 1yo used to love sleep and would sleep for 10+ hours without making a peep but probably the last 2.5-3 months we're having 2 wake ups a night. It's absolutely pushing me to breaking point now. I'm constantly snapping and feel like a shit mum for it. Idk how I'm going to cope when I go back to work soon.

It’s rubbish. It settles for us and then starts up again.

Think I've had 3 full nights sleep since April. She wakes more now than she did as a newborn. Sometimes waking up every hour.

I’ve had no sleep tonight. I really, really regret having my daughter. She’s destroyed my relationship with my son and she’s destroyed me form the inside. I’m not blaming her personally. I just really, really wish I hadn’t had her.

These phases are awful. You’ll cope. You have no choice. You will get used to being permanently exhausted deep to your bones.

With my dc2 I discovered shifting bedtime earlier helped, for some reason . Totally counter intuitive. Just wanted to mention.

If you are still off work, in the daytime make a safe area to play downstairs, fold up a duvet and lie down on the floor and let dc play while you snooze a bit.

Right there with you, my lg is 11 months and has been waking every 40 mins-2hrs for the last 9 months, sooo tired, but the show must go on, i have 4 older kids who need my attention too (2 autistic) im really not sure how i am making it through the days at the moment, running on autopilot and sheer will power… and coffee, but cant drink as much as i would like as i am bf lol 🤦🏻‍♀️ i just wanna sleep for more than 2 hours 😭 lol xx

I think in the day I can cope really well, plaster that smile on and have an amazing day but 2am and I'm just emotional haha. I know it won't last forever and whilst I feel for you all too it's nice to know it's fairly normal! Like you say the show must go on and for now...coffee! Thank you for letting me offload 💕

My emotional time is right before i go up to bed about 10-11 because i know as soon as i lie down and get comfortable she will wake up and so starts the struggle to sleep again lol 🥱 xx