DD2 started nursery - feel bereft

[Dramallama91]

Ok so maybe a bit melodramatic but I did NOT expect this.

I go back to work in Jan but started DD2 (12 months) in nursery (same one as her sister) this week because we needed to secure the place and I thought a bit of overlap would help with settling in.

I've been looking forward to it for ages, thinking I'm going to have three days a week to myself, relax a bit, get Christmas organised at my leisure etc.

But instead I just feel AWFUL. I can't describe it and it's taken me by surprise. I'm not an overly emotional person but today I've just come home to my empty house sat on the sofa and cried. What the hell?!

When DD1 started nursery I was back at work so suppose getting stuck into that and really enjoying getting back into the swing of things.

Don't know what I'm looking to achieve other than a bit of a vent I suppose as I don't really have anyone close to me with a shoulder to cry on

Aw, OP. I remember this feeling not long ago when DD2 started school. It's such a weird feeling isn't it. Very empty. On her first day I was going to do loads of stuff but then I just got back in bed and got my journal out and wrote about how I was feeling, which helped a bit. For me it was also the fact that it felt like only a second ago that her big sis had started school, and suddenly it was three years later. Solidarity with you. Hope you're feeling a bit better today :)

Honestly I could have wrote this post myself. DC2 (9 month) starts nursery next week and I'm more emotional than when DC1 started when she was 11 months. He had his last settling in session today and was absolutely fine but I know I'm still going to be a wreck next week.

Just try and enjoy your free time next week, or occupy yourself with sorting Xmas things (which is what I'm planning to do)