I currently live with my fiancé, our 3 almost 4 year old daughter, and my fiancés son who comes to stay with us Friday-Monday.
We live in a 2 bedroom apartment and it's very tiny so we turned the smallest room into an office and let the kids have the other room. Our bed is in the living room , which is a small area so our dining room table , couch and bed is all compacted together. Our apartment has a lot of mold in the office room from cheap renovation the apartments did to turn an outdoor closet into an indoor one.
My fiancé lost his job and has been looking for one for a few months ,and I'm finishing my degree while job hunting.
I'm not trying to complain because I'm a very humble person, but living like this has been affecting my mental health.
I don't like having company (friends/family) over because when someone comes over they sit on our bed and its irritating. We live street side on the second floor so it's hard to get good sleep. As a mom it makes it hard to separate household duties and responsibilities and lounge Time because the bed take up the whole living room. I stopped feeling motivated to dress up and do my hair/makeup. I don't feel like myself anymore. I only feel good when I leave .
I'm growing resentment that my fiancé isn't finding a job yet . I feel so hopeless I don't know what to do