Please no judgement as I’m fed up enough.
I have a 5 mo and 3 yr old. I’m just counting down the days till I can go back to work, purely just to be away from the house and baby duties. Does anyone else feel this way ? I feel like I see other mums and they look like they love it and it baffles me.
5 mo is a bad night sleeper, no shock there. She barely naps in the day, every nap is a battle and she sleeps for a bout 30 mins. She just went down not too bad and woke after 15 min, could honestly cry. She’s always moody when awake and has become super wingey because she’s always tired. The only time she has a decent nap is for other people … what is that about ?
I’ve done this all before, I was obsessive with my first with wake windows etc, I know all the info on baby sleep, just doesn’t work and I can’t be as strict this time because I have to work round my 3 yr old, nursery etc.
My baby is wild !! She does not stop moving, she won’t be held, she won’t really be cuddled, I’ve never managed to rock her to sleep, she just try’s to pull away.
its hard ‘entertaining her’ all day and she barely naps, so I’m just fighting through each day praying for some down time when she sleeps but it doesn’t come. The whinging and crying is killing me, I’m a rubbish mum because of it, my patience is rock bottom.
I hate being home, I’m bored and now having to watch my spending as down to stat and savings and I HATE it. I go for walks, boring, I don’t have any mum friends with similar age babies, all older, don’t have much help, mum has started pulling away and isn’t over as much any more.
I keep trying to figure out how I go back to work early but feel so guilty about putting her in nursery so young. My plan so far is starting off a day a week for a couple of months and then 3 days from March.
I don’t even know why am I writing this, I’m just tired, fed up, no one to talk to and quite honestly, no one really cares when it’s your second, there is an expectation to just get on with it and it’s very isolating