she's 8.5m
it was always inevitable I'd be going back to work full time when she was 7m or so as DH is self-employed and is still drawing a low salary while the business grows.
but I am beginning to wonder if we've got it wrong
6am I feed dd half-asleep
6.30 I get her up and dressed and sit her in the cot with some toys while I shower and dress
7am we go downstairs and I load/unload washing machine, pack bags for nursery
7.30 leave the hosue
8am drop dd at nursery (which luckily she seems to like)
8.30 at my desk
two expressing sessions in an out-of-the-way meeting room for dd's bottles for the next day
4.30 leave work
5pm pick up dd
5.30 home - half an hour of playing with me and dh
6pm bath and songs with dh while I do laundry and wash pump etc
6.30 final feed while dh cooks dinner
7pm asleep
we get an hour of tv in between settling dd
9pm wash up, clean kitchen, more laundry etc
10pm bed
the thing that got me was my mum rang the other day and said 'oh I found a photo of you at just the age dd is now - you're sitting at your little chair and table with your Bunnykins china cup and bowl. Would you like them for dd?'
and I burst into tears
she is 8.5m and has three bottles and four bfs a day, a couple of spoonfuls of puree at nursery and finger food at the weekends with us.
when the hell am I meant to teach her to use an open mug and proper crockery? are there other things I've utterly missed?
have I fucked this up beyond redemption?