Does it get easier?
3 year old and 9 month old and I feel like I'm just the worst mum. Eldest has been in and out of hospital her entire life (two occasions we were told we may lose her) and just last week both were admitted on different days with different viruses. I'm exhausted and admittedly it has been a tougher week, but the eldest just constantly screams, hits etc and I'm just struggling. Boundaries are firm, we don't do screen time to let her and us have down time (not against it, it just riles her up more so we cut it out.) I completely get her world is constantly turned upside down with hospital visits and a new sibling (whom she actually adores) but I am just struggling. Today I shouted and felt so guilty and ashamed of myself. This was not the mum I wanted to be. The juggle is just so intense and I have wonderful support so I don't know why i'm finding it so hard!? I have seen my GP, tried anti depressants but they made me feel a whole lot worse and I've done several types of therapy, and have adopted tips to help me do a better job.
DD attends nursery but when ill she can't attend and with all the winter bugs starting to do the rounds it makes most weeks 'at home' weeks.
Please give me some widsom or any tips - I'm just hoping I haven't messed our bond up by being such a shitty parent this week. I'm a SAHM & dad is a fantastic hands on parent who is finding it just as hard as I am.