Hi. My little boy is 19 months old and I'm really struggling. His dad works all day and I'm at home and I'm feeling so depressed I have done for a few months but each day I wake up I feel more and more depressed.
My little boy has a lot of issues such as non verbal, sensory issues, stimming and he won't play like my other 2 children did.
He prefers to smash toys of the floor and pull everything of the sofa. I feel like I'm constantly chasing my tail and I'm exhausted. He won't want to share time together with me to read books etc he just chomps on them or throws them. He doesn't like cuddles he would rather nip my face and pull my hair.
Even taking him out is a nightmare. He will whale and screech till we leave wherever we are.
Each day I wake up and think I can't do this anymore. I'm exhausted mentally.
I often think what have I done so bad in life to deserve this misery every day.
I love my little boy so dearly and I feel like such a bad mum for feeling this way.
Does anyone else have days like this?