Feel like an awful person

[Shoutywouty]

I’ve never felt so guilty in my life. Had a super hard day with my 6 month old, she’s teething and crying constantly. I also have a 3 year old whose behaviour is awful at the moment.

I served dinner and turned around for a minute, when I turned back the dog was eating the dinner. Rage overcame me, I felt totally out of control. I screamed at the dog to get out, and kicked her up the bum while she went past.

My baby started crying hysterically. She was terrified seeing me react so violently. I’m so ashamed, I hate myself. I don’t know where it came from, I’ve never done anything like that before and it scares me I could do it again. The poor dog is ok, I’ve checked her, but I can’t help but feel like a terrible person.

This isn’t an excuse but I was beaten as a child, and my biggest fear is ever being like my parents.

I think you need to learn from this. Mainly keep dog away from dc when they are eating. Dogs are dogs. Opportunists!

When it gets stressful it’s easy to make mistakes. We all do! Dog won’t remember this and dc won’t either. Is 3 year old at nursery? To give you a break? If not, would this help? It’s perfectly ok to let emotions out occasionally. It doesn’t mean you will do it sll
the time and you had good reason to be annoyed. It’s a one off in stressful circumstances and you know you aren’t a bad mum. You’ll be fine.

A toddler, a baby and a ddog. All designed to cause stress and push buttons.
Tomorrow is another day. Absolutely none of us are perfect op..