I can't do this any more

[Tiredmumtoboy]

I don't think I can be a parent anymore.

I have one 3 year old and I'm due next month with our second. My husband is currently living in our old house getting it ready to sell whilst I moved down in with my parents so I can get my son into a preschool down here. He's due to start his preschool in September. (Find childcare is a minefield at the moment) I also have to enrol him in primary school in September.

My husband has now lost his job due his business moving his roll to freaking India!! But we can't go back on plans now we are to far forward with them. I've already lost childcare placement in our old town and there's no where to re enroll my son at all! All full!! So we are stuck living in limbo.

I'm alone currently, parents away, stressed trying to balance work and a toddler when I'd usually have help. He goes to child care usually on an afternoon but the childminder we have in place until September is on holiday.

My son screamed at me whilst I was in a meeting and I had to actually leave that meeting because of it.

I'm so angry all the time. I'm tired I cant stop crying. I ended up shouting at my boy and shoving him in his room whilst I had a break down of my own.

I've already called Prenatal mental health team.

But I already know I'm not a fit parent. I don't know how to move forward with this.

Sorry you are feeling like this. Do you have any friends or family nearby to call on for help whilst your husband and parents are away?

It sounds like it's just temporary stress that's making you feel like this though, is that right? It doesn't sound like you've always felt this way about parenting and you're having another, so is it just that things are really shitty at the moment and it's overwhelming, because that's perfectly normal op. It's hard juggling everything with a young child it's not enjoyable at all in my experience. And that's okay to find it shit. I'm glad you've reached out for help though op.

When is DH joining you?

Take a deep breath. It sounds as though you are just overwhelmed, which is not surprising. Have you told your husband how you are feeling? How far away is he?

@HoppingPavlova

He joins me when he can but, with the lost job we don't really know what to do. We won't be able to port our mortgage or even get a new one now until he gets a job and passes probation.

@Shouldntbutdo my other half know how I'm feeling. He's 2 and a half hours away.

One step at a time. The solution will come if you don’t panic.