Hey everyone, I feel like I need to rant and let it all out so here I am..
I'm a single mum to my amazing 7 year old daughter who is my life. We've been through a lot the last 3/4 years since I left her father and I've really struggled since the split. I have little to no emotional support or guidance from my family and it breaks my heart.
I feel like I've failed my daughter. I work part time, run and pay for a home alone, I struggle every month, struggle a lot with my mental health (I'm on meds and have support from my GP) and I do everything to provide my daughter with everything and more in life. I feel like she deserves more than me..a mum who doesn't struggle financially to provide on her own, she deserves a mother who doesn't suffer with their mental health etc.
Me and her dad do not have a good relationship and I cannot talk to him other than over text messages as he will not communicate with me. He knows how much I struggle and sits and lets it happen whilst he lives comfortably with his new family. Is my daughter better off being with her dad instead of with me struggling? He can provide her with a better life, he is financially stable, has family support and has a partner & more children all I can give her is me and I try my best but it's not good enough.
This probably sounds like word vomit but I'm really struggling I feel like a bad mum, this isn't how I pictured things would turn out. I love my daughter more than anything in this world, she's growing up now and I'm scared for the future.