Struggling with letting DD go

[Rattlerattleshakeshake]

Hi all

some of you may know I recently posted as my partner of 10 years has decided to split with me and sell our family home.

we amicably discussed child arrangements, holidays etc. And as DD is so young (nearly 7 months) we agreed that I would decided, as mum, when the time is right for things like holidays.

ex-P has now switched and started saying that he doesn’t think this is fair and that he wants me to give an age as to when he’ll be able to take her away and it shouldn’t matter about any future partners etc.

I am really struggling with the thought process of having to give DD up for the duration of a holiday. As it stands right now it will be a no until she is older. But when is older? When are you ever ready to see your beloved child get on a plane with their father (who has been pretty crap since she was born anyway). How do you actually cope with letting go? Even overnight stays, how do you cope? How do you not over think and over worry constantly until they’re back home safe with you?

I would just like to mention for those who hasn’t seen my previous thread that of course me and ex-P were together for 10 years, living together for a long time, and trying to conceive for 2 years.
so the decision to have a child wasn’t taken lightly and whilst I know I have to share my child and that was always a possibility, as we had been together so long and was both so keen on taking the next step I didn’t think it would be necessary hence why I am so worried and finding this so difficult.

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