37 weeks pregnant and so sad….

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I’ve not hard the best of pregnancies. Lots of sickness and various outside stressors… (unplanned pregnancy) much older sibling.

However, 34 weeks really took a turn for the worst and I feel constantly like I am dreading the future and I’ll never feel myself again. It’s like if I see photos or anything that reminds me of my pre pregnant self, I feel like I’ve died.

i had to change a lot due to the pregnancy so this might be why… but nothing dire.

i have a supportive partner and parents but i I am just Crippled with anxiety and sadness about what’s to come and so worried I’ll sink into PPD. I also have intrusive thoughts which I just ignore but aren’t nice.

i am on the waiting list for therapy but I haven’t even had an assessment yet so I think it’ll be a white until I can talk to someone:

I am wondering if anyone had any experience of feeling this way and did it get better when baby came ?

I want nothing more to enjoy this baby but every time I think about him, I think how I’ll be depriving my other child from attention, money, resources that she very much needs. And I feel extremely guilty for both and the worst mother to walk the planet.

I feel pathetic and hopeless and I am so angry at myself for not foreseeing the impact this pregnancy would have on me and the family. I hate to say it but I feel like I’ve made a huge mistake. I feel awful to write that… and love my my baby but feel an absolute crap mum. And j am so worried my mental health will take a nose dive as it’s already so fragile… I just want my children to be happy and loved and they need a well adjusted mum for that to happen. I only have two weeks to go u til my C section.

Thank you in advance 🙏

Your hormones will be literally all over the place right now, so much so that they can take hold of you.

Your care for your first child and desire to love your unborn child, despite how bad you currently feel, sounds like you are a deeply caring and considerate mother to me, and certainly not the worst in the world.

Pregnancy is HARD and women don't get nearly the support which is needed or deserved, but I would strongly suggest you call your doctor) midwife team to talk though how you feel and hopefully get support. Other than that, please make sure your you are eating and resting well, taking short walks where you can and enjoy the sunshine when it is shining.

How lovely for your eldest it will be to have another sibling. Your time together on this new chapter of your life can be a very good thing indeed. I hope the pressure you're feeling comes to an end so you can start to feel differently and see your situation from a happier perspective.

You've got this and a world of women cheering you on 💐

Thank you so much. She is ten years old so I worry a lot that she will just find him annoying and be enable to relate to him and not have the parents she once had due to limited time, money and resources… 😔

I have a ten year age gap with my sister. She was my role model growing up and now we are so close. Good luck OP, you'll be great :)