Shouted at 6 month …

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Evening all
im not proud of this and actually feel so unbelievably terrible.
earlier I shouted at my 6 month old. I can’t believe I done it and now I can’t stop bloody crying out of guilt.

i live with DD’s father but he is never around - we live together but are not together. I do everything with DD, everything with the house, and everything else you can think of. DD’s father works, goes to the pub, and sleeps on the sofa.

DD has never been a good napper. Constantly fights daytime naps and I spend all day in the sling and given she is over 20lbs now it’s tough going. I’ve been really unwell the last few days, tried to do everything as usually would with sling naps and for some reason DD was again fighting bedtime. This has been going on for about a week or so now. Really really crying, wants to fall asleep on her own but can’t, wants to sleep on side but accidentally rolls onto front and gets upset.

anyway, I was just at the end of it as it was 8pm at this point, hadn’t eaten, showered, still got bottles to wash and sterilise and absolutely knackered. I ended up shouting stop quite loudly and she started crying. I have never ever done anything like that and genuinely I just can’t believe I done it. As soon as I done it I hugged her so tightly and said sorry a million times and then when I stood her up on the bed she started giggling but I just can’t help but think I’ve damaged the poor child emotionally…

anyway that was it really…. Feel free to be horrible to me as I totally deserve it and I think that’s what I’ve posted this for!!!

Please give yourself a break, everyone has done this and baby won’t know or be affected. Do you have any other support , like local family? And I’d honestly be getting rid of DDs father and getting your space back.

Everyone has moments like this. You're managing all alone, you're bound to get frustrated. Get that lazy man more involved- wake him up one morning and tell him uou need to go out and he's on baby duty. Go and do something nice for you. It will drastically increase your patience.

Please don’t beat yourself up too much - the fact you are worrying about it enough to post on Mumsnet shows you are clearly not like this normally.

yes, not ideal - but it sounds like you are doing an amazing job with a difficult situation! X

@Isthissleepthingworking @Mnk711 @Peonies12 Thanks ladies.

last time I tried to take some time for myself DDs father said no as he already had plans (football & pub!).

I have asked my parents to watch her one day next week so I can have a break.

Thanks again for being kind x

I've shouted at my baby and I had a lot a more help then you. Cut yourself some slack. Remember putting her down for five minutes and going into another room is fine.

Her Dad sounds useless and you need to read him the riot act or chuck him out. Hopefully your Mum and Dad can help you. We we not meant to raise babies alone.

My OH is not useless and I've still had moments where I've shouted. It's a horrible feeling but in the grand scheme of things you've not inflicted any damage. Sending love