My little girl is nearly 20months. I went back when she was 10 months and I still hate having to leave her and she hates it too.
I work 7 nights on, 7 nights off. So one week I am there completely and on the weeks im working she still sees me from roughly 12pm to 6.30pm, sometimes like weekends I sleep even less than that to spend more time with her.
So in reality I get to spend a lot more time with her than a lot of working mums but it still breaks my heart to leave her. Just there now I rang my husband to ask him something while at work on my break and he forgot himself and asked if she wanted to speak to me.
She started bawling her eyes out for me, he had to hang up to calm her down and now Im stuck with the image of her crying sore for me in my head the rest of the night. She wakes regularly when Im not there and always cries for me.
She either stays with my parents or my husband so again its not like shes with strangers. I guess Im just venting because I'm upset about hearing her so upset tonight.
I need to work, we couldnt afford to run things on one wage but I always hear other mums say that after the first couple of weeks things became easy and they actually enjoy going to work for a break etc and I just feel the exact opposite of that.