Not liking my 1 year old, shes so much work

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My baby is 1 and it just feels like everything is a battle at the moment. She is constantly whining and screaming if she can't get something, changing her nappy or dressing her is a nightmare she is screaming and rolling around often pushing herself off her changing mat. She's recently started to bang her head on the floor when shes upset. She doesnt sleep well, needs constant rocking and patting and then shes up every 2 hours. I just feel exhausted. She's in daycare 2 days a week which is helping my sanity but im starting to dread the days I have her on my own. Anyone been through this? Is there light at the end of the tunnel? Starting to think about putting her in daycare full time and changing jobs to work more hours as I just dont want to be around her

That sounds relentless. Do you have any enjoyable times with her? I think to some extent it's a normal phase they go through (especially the getting dressed/nappy change etc) but the sleeping sounds extremely tough - you must be shattered. What would happen if you stayed with her but didn't rock her?

Just to add this isn't typical baby behaviour as my 1st child wasn't like this, yes he had his moments but he was loving and happy, I cried so much having to leave him when I went back to work. I breastfed this baby and feel I created her to be so demanding and difficult as she was fed on demand and never self settled to sleep

It's a really hard age.

Is she walking or crawling?

I would do some sleep training to sort out the nighttime.

Did you or could you have PND?

We've tried this and she will either wake up as soon as we put her in her cot or cry on and off, its exhausting. Ive been able to have a night or two away now im not breastfeeding but ive just gone to a family members home to sleep as im so tired

She's crawling but she just wants lifted all the time and then put down to walk holding hands, she really wont venture far from me at all. We've tried sleep training but she ended up crying so much she made herself sick. I've accepted things will be hard but hoping to know if/when it might get a bit easier