Looking for some advice about what to expect if I become a single mother - what the hardest parts were, any parts you actually found easier, things I should do to get my ducks in a row and make sure I'm prepared.
Our relationship has been awful since having DS (8mo) after the first few weeks he began insulting me and being downright nasty when I asked him to do anything at night with the wee one (we both work full time so it seemed fair we would split the tasks needed and then both get a bit of sleep at least if taking turns).
Then, just as things were starting to improve because I told him we were over unless changes were made, he got very drunk and refused to sleep in the spare room (at this point I was cosleeping with baby (following health visitors guidelines about safe sleep), and did not want him in the bed too as he was very intoxicated. He refused so I said I'd go to my holiday property I own as it was vacant - just wanted a good night's sleep as DS had just had a hospital procedure under anasthetic and wanted him to be able yo rest up properly. Became aggressive from there and threatened to phone the police on me for driving under the influence (I had one small glass of wine 5 hours prior with my dinner, I'm not much of a drinker and knew i wasnt over the limit), and started shouting, swearing, and was aggressive to a friend who came to help.
Fast forward to a few hours later, he was mortified, apologised right away and told me he was disgusted with his behaviour, and started counselling. We still live together, but health visitor is aware what has happened and I'm getting extra support.
He has actually improved but I just don't forgive him for what happened and for how he treated me - and whenever we argue he threatens to break up and I just think "don't you threaten me with a good time" ha, so it's probably done unless by some miracle things take a u turn. At this rate I doubt it. Difficulty is we live together and both names on lease so there's a lot that would need to be sorted, and our son is still undergoing outpatient treatment frequently so we have a lot going on.
That's more for background really, I know how unhealthy the situation is just looking for people's experiences going it alone. Thanks.