I have name changed for this as still feel ashamed of how awful I felt. After reading a thread yesterday about a baby who cries all the time and the poor miserable mum, I’ve been reliving my own experience with witching hour/colic. My little girl seemed to cry every waking hour when she wasn’t feeding, for probably the first 15 weeks. It was truly awful, particularly during the witching hours in an evening. Nothing would stop it. I hated my life and hated being a mum. I still feel like I haven’t recovered from it, although I feel happy now and enjoy being with her.
The GP and health visitor were useless and just said it’s normal, she has wind, try gripe water and holding her upright (as if I hadn’t tried)
I hadn’t expected motherhood to be easy, but I was truly terrified to take her anywhere or be on my own with her as she just cried constantly. It’s much better now she’s 10 months old and we enjoy our days together but I still think about those days constantly and how anxious I felt. I feel like I was robbed of the “newborn bubble” because it was just hell of constant crying and nothing easing it despite trying everything. I even feel anxious walking down certain roads, reliving when I’d be walking down them when she was in her colic phase and how I’d be praying she wouldn’t cry as I couldn’t get her to stop.
It feels like that time period has really affected me. Does anyone else feel like this?
Not sure what I’m hoping to get out of this. I just feel a bit traumatised!