First time mum.... help!

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I'm one of the first in my friendship group to have a child so it's not something anyone can relate to.
I'm experiencing feelings of making the wrong decision to have a baby, I love him more than anything but I'm just not dealing with the juggle of motherhood, work, friendship/ relationship and household. For context we're deep in a sleep regression and I'm currently running on 3 hours sleep. Am I not fit to be a mother if I'm having these feelings? Why am I losing my patience so quickly?

This seems SO normal! Once you have a baby you realise how nothing can prepare you for how exhausting, relentless, and thankless it is.

Are you back at work? How many days? How old is your baby? Is your partner hands on and helpful?

It's completely normal, sleep deprivation, all the hormones in your body and such a huge life adjustment really take a toll on your mental health.
Do you still have a health visitor? Reach out to them for support, if not, contact your GP
Do you have family who can help with baby so you can have a break and catch up on sleep?

You sound like a normal mum to me!
How old is baby? Are you breastfeeding? Is the dad living with you?

Absolutely normal. Sleep deprivation is a killer and especially with your first child you realise your life will never be the same again and you have to get used to a new identity as X's mum rather than your name. Good news is it doesn't last but it's intense and real for a while. Things really do get easier with time. Give yourself a break and ask for help

Sleep deprivation is so so tough! I didn’t feel like myself at all for the first year or more of not getting any sleep, give yourself more credit and I promise, it will pass xx

I'm also a FTM and the first in my family/friendship group to have a baby too. I felt similar to you as well sometimes! It's a huge adjustment! I'm sure you're doing a great job! 💪

Thanks everyone for your kinds words and making me feel normal in this crazy world of motherhood.

I've recently gone back to work and my baby has just turned 1 so there has been a lot of changes. My partner is amazing but unfortunately I am left to the heavy load during the week due to his work.

I need to work on my self doubt and get a good night sleep 😅 wish me luck! X