Wondered if I could get some outside perspective.
I have a 4 month old DS. I self admit he is a PFB! He is exclusively breastfed, and wakes around 2 or 3 times a night. I do all the nights during the week solo. I am tired but I have good support. I catch up on sleep when I can during the day. My husband once or twice a week (depending on if he is working a 6 day week or not) will have him for the night with expressed bottles to give me a night in the spare room. If he is working from home and DS is napping he will have him in the sling so I can have a nap. Husband cooks all the meals.
So I have a good bond with DS but I am tired despite this support. I think this is probably making me a bit loopy. I don’t know if this is combined with hormones. I don’t like the idea of anyone else looking after him. My mum has had him for the odd hour while I’m in the house but I can’t really relax. When my in-laws visit (who I don’t have a great relationship with) and they snuggle up to him I can feel my blood boil. I hate handing him round to family members for cuddles. I know I probably sound nuts.
So here’s my question. Am I “too” attached? Should I be forcing myself to let my mum and in laws look after him so I can catch up on sleep and be a bit more rational?
I feel I can’t see the wood from the trees.