Unwanted pregnancy over Christmas

[BlueBritish]

Hi all,
I didn’t really know where to put this but didn’t know if anyone had experienced something similar and got help.
I already have a DD aged 3, when I was pregnant with her it wasn’t very good, it was during covid so I was extremely lonely, I got gestational diabetes too. After giving birth I had really bad post natal depression, I got help but there was little support around me because of covid.
Fast forward to now, me and my partner decided that I would come of the injection, I really thought I was ready for a baby. I fell pregnant in December, and it’s not like I didn’t want the baby but I got so full of anxiety and panic that I was having panic attacks. I had a termination and that was hard but I felt as though I am traumatised from my previous pregnancy and I don’t know how to move forward.
I was thinking of potentially getting some therapy but I’m not sure where to go. I just want to know if anyone’s been in the same or similar boat and how you’ve managed to move forward

Check if the hospital you gave birth at has a birth afterthoughts programme (most do). There's no time limit on when you can access it. It does sound like you have some birth trauma so it will definitely help to talk it through before you go ahead with another.

I could have written this. Same time frame and everything. It’s hard isn’t it? My life was at risk so there really was no option but it’s hard to remember just how bad things were when you look at the decision you had to make in hindsight after the hormones are dying down.