Hi all , posted a lot through pregnancy and beyond . First time mum , back ground of anxiety and had a severe birth anxiety . Anyway , we made it . It’s been a hard year , but that’s motherhood I guess . My gorgeous girl turns one in 5 weeks , so a real winter baby . Due to this we can’t really go to a zoo or anything so was planning sea life , lunch and home later for cake and imagine some visitors to see her . I’ve ordered Baloon’s etc and party hats .
Anyway , MIL has twice asked am I having a party and I told her no . The main reason being the enormous pressure of hosting and secondly she hasn’t got any baby friends all my friends children are like 4/5. And I figured it would be more for the adults than my girl . I find hosting anxiety inducing. My MIl is very over whelming and abruptly said today “ first birthdays are for family “ now I feel shit but also very annoyed . She’s got another grandchild that came 6 weeks after , and I get she’s so proud . So in a nutshell , she wants me to have a party so she can have them together and nothing more . She then queried why I’m getting a cake if I’m not having a party and I felt this was extremely sarcastic , why does she think I’m getting a cake . I feel like I’m failing not having a party , but I will be so filled with dread I won’t enjoy my girls special day . My partner then said she just wants her to do something nice for her birthday , but I thought I had planned something nice . A day out , pancakes and strawbs for breakfast , Baloon’s , lunch and some visitors here and there to give some gifts and grab some cake . Maybe I’m being OTT but this will be a regular thing on any occasion .