I feel so much guilt 😔 long story short I'm a single solo mum the dads not involved and my family are busy with there own lives that's fine I understand, i feel lost hurt and annoyed at myself because lastnight i do the usual tea bath fresh pjs play then bed, everynight is a battle for bed its a constant flip between milk,dummy,singing,soft toys, untill sleep.. crying out full beam over and over I gathered it was teeth causing a problem so the only way I can get calpol is into milk bottle, but already 3 quarter of milk had been drunk anyway so I put the recommended dose into what was left then decided they no longer wanted the milk ok i sat down next to get tryna calm the suitation but the constant loud pitch scream was getting to me.. couldn't hear me talking back as it was that loud.. this went on for long enough scream scream scream so I thought ok well il have to be cruel to be kind il just have to give you medicine with the syringe everytime you cry and open mouth advised by a Dr once ..as there was no other way.. so I did this wasn't happy but I got the medicine down..things wasn't getting better so I put teething gel that didn't work so I then tried baby bonjela that never worked so I then messaged my friend Dr could I give ibrophen but I already gave calpol around 30 minutes ago he advised yes only if the child's in pain but maybe only try 2.5ml so I did this again the same way well that was it sick twice everywhere all over the bed down her clean clothes and vest. All in the hair I got mad I shouted a few times as the cry got through me and also now I was facing al this ontop.. I tried to clean as much sick up as possible but it was alot, wouldn't let me wipe face or sick out of hair hitting me screaming so I started to take dirty sick clothes of but I was that angry I was doing it quickly and not gentle as I realise then took pjs of then undone buttons on vest to take of but as it went over the head it sort of got stuck on head and I just pulled it of and I felt so bad as I wasn't gentle I was more rough because I'm so annoyed and so tired of everything.. puts a new vest on but sat down so I pulled towards me so they would lay down so i could fasten at bottom but doing tjay again wast gentle as I now realise.. I stands them out the cot I ran down stairs to take al sick stuf down and get new cot sheet the cry is still going on I'm tormented now at this point I start to feel I can't do this I changed the sheet then got clean pjs tried to put them on but it's like hard work finally gets them on puts back in cot turned tv on for distraction and then they calmed down.. but I had enough I kept replaying it all talking to My friend how I wasn't gentle I also swore.. I felt burnt out.. but iknow it's no excuse but I can't seem to get past the guilt I apologised and I cried but why did I get angry because they was sick I should of been there better for them I hate myself for this just wondering if anyone else been threw similar and how do I move without guilt 😔