I guess I'm just looking to see if anyone has any words of wisdom or some motivation for me. Basically I feel like I'm failing as a parent. I have 2 dd age 3 and 11. They are healthy and happy (for the most part!) and their basic needs are met, they are fed, clothed, looked after in that sense, and I should add that I love them with all my heart and they are my world (incase there's any doubt) Where I feel like I'm failing is on an energy level. I've lived with mental health conditions all my life, and I've managed them by myself, sometimes well, sometimes not so well, but I've always stayed strong and made sure I got myself well for the kids. I still struggle with daily life though. I don't sleep well so I'm tired all the time. My house gets messed up so easily and it is such a struggle for me to keep on top of it. I do try but I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. It stresses me out so much and I beat myself up about it, and wish that I could just get my finger out and sort it all out. I don't have any friends or family so I can't let anybody know I'm struggling or ask for help. I look at others and think why can't I be like them? fully functional and able to keep my shit together. I try not let the kids see me when I'm stressed or upset but they obviously pick up on it. I wish they had a more exciting life and I punish myself for them having to live with me as I am.