Thinking of giving up

[MrsSnape]

I have been doing k100 with the open university since last year, its due to end in June.

Thing is my heart is just not in it anymore, I don't even want to work in the NHS anymore and I find the course so boring and dull.

I've had decent marks on my TMAs apart from the last one...I didn't study at all for it and basically read up on the essay question a week before the TMA was due. I managed to scrape a 67 but I wasn't all that bothered.

The last TMA that was due last week I just didn't send at all I'm allowed to miss one so I could still pass but the whole thing just stresses me out.

Every day I'm thinking "I REALLY need to study" and then I get doing other stuff, feel guilty, get more worried and stressed but cannot bring myself to open the books.

I opened the example exam questions and wouldn't have had a clue how to answer either of them. I'm so far behind there is no way I can catch up to where I should be and to top it all off, the exam is being held MILES away and I have no real way of getting there without arranging childcare and keeping the kids off school etc.

Should I just give it up? the thought of being able to relax again makes me think its not worth the worry....

Its hard isn't it? I'm doing my third or fourth course with the OU and although I love the subject I'm finding the motivation shifting.

If you only have till June (like me) maybe its worth thrasing it out. You'll probably feel better about yourself for finishing it, even if you don't use it in your job. Something to put on your CV??

When I get like this about the stuff, I try to calmly say to myself 'This is for pleasure, I don't need to do it, just enjoy what I can out of it'. Then I find myself doign something rather than just nothing, and it picks up again.

sorry, not being of much help.

If its really really making you miserable then of course its not worth it. Can you not take a break? They are usually good about these things....

I'm sure you could always catch up if you wanted to, but you need to decide if it is worth the effort. I suppose only you can decide that. What would giving it up mean for future jobs, would you do something else instead etc. Have you spoken to your tutor?

I am doing OU courses at the moment and have dropped one since I started doing them. I was in the same sort of situation as you. I wasn't enjoying it, wasn't studying but felt constantly guilty about not studying and so couldn't enjoy anything else I was doing. I think it just wasn't the right course for me. I didn't drop it until I had thought carefully about what I was going to do next and for me that meant applying for my next course in a different subject. I'm enjoying that and although it is still hard to find the time for it sometimes it is soooooo much easier when it is something you are actually interested in.

Could you do a smaller course? I was doing a 60 point course but found it too much to fit in with everything else. I dropped it but started a 10 point course instead. I feel like I'm making progress with my long term career plans, but I'm much less stressed.

I feel exactly like this about U211. Due to finish in June, and have decided, with only 2 TMAs to go that I'll plough on. It really is only a matter of a few weeks. You sound like you've done okay so far if you think that 69 % is scraping through! Stick with it and then change subjects before your next course. I thought I'd love studying English language and it's so dull I can't even begin to tell you..... so am going back to literature in Oct. It really isn't worth giving it up so late in the day. Bit like giving birth really... just one final push...