I’m currently 15 weeks pregnant with a baby boy. I already have a 2 kids who will be 5(f) and 3(m) when this one is born. This pregnancy was planned, but by 6 weeks I started having anxiety and panic attacks and regretting getting pregnant. I was diagnosed with and am being treated for severe prenatal depression and anxiety. I did not experience this at all with my other two pregnancies. I’m no longer feeling suicidal or having constant panic attacks (it got very scary), but I’m still feeling anxious and regretful everyday. If I could go back, knowing what I know now, I would definitely not have tried for a third. I considered termination, but ultimately decided to continue the pregnancy out of fear of regret, the fact that we planned this, and because we have the means to have another child. I do not enjoy the baby stage, as I’m awful with sleep deprivation. I love being a mom and my two children are my world. Once they turn 2 or 3 I’m definitely in my element. I am a high stress person and have experienced anxiety and bouts of mild depression most of my life, but I’d been feeling great consistently for at least 6 months before conceiving. I have a great husband and support system and my mom has offered to move in with us for the first few months. I’m not sure what I’m looking for here. Mostly just reassurance that I didn’t make a horrible decision by having a third and that I haven’t ruined my life. My main worries are never sleeping again, having three kids to worry about (health, safety, etc), travel being a nightmare, not being able to give my current two the attention they deserve, having my daughter be left out by the two boys, feeling stressed and overwhelmed all the time, and having my current youngest feel jealous as a middle child (he is a big mama’s boy). We have help for the first few months, my daughter will be in kindergarten in the fall and the boys have daycare lined up when the baby is 5 months. Please share any experience, advice, or support. I’m just feeling overwhelmed.