"Partners" abusive. He's mentally abused me for year, he's inappropriatley touch led our now 4yr old as a baby.
I've been trapped there
I have no proof because none lf it is provable, marks, nothing. My words against his and he is a narcastic, he has everyone fooled.
I've told his mum and she is calling me delusional no matter what I say she twists and said I said things I didn't, lies, called me everything sexist. All his family are doing the same to defend him against me.
Him and her are copies of each other.
My response to him lying and her lying to me.. about me, is to sit there defending myself. I get shakey, upset, cry whilst everyone else is calm and look insane compared to them. No matter how much sense I speak they just twist everyone words I say and call me a liar. It's like me against a huge family who live within minutes from me doing the same thing.
They are all makeing out that I'm the abusive and fabricating things to make me out as the very person he is to me.
I'm secretly getting my own house soon through nha housing, I want full custody but I'm scared I'd look Crazy and have all these people standing up for him and create false statements they collectively came together to talk about first.. and I'd get her taken away from me as they use lo against me.
But if I don't do this and just give lo to him weekends every week, i don't trust any of them. They are ethe favoured family in the area, everyone loves them but I'm the only one being let in to the side of them and no one believes me.
No one believes me about the abuse and everything he's done, everyones lying about me, makeing me out to be someone I'm not. I over explain as a trauma response to try and be heard and it all bites me in the ass yet I can't control it. Recently the house has become a MESS because my mental health is so bad and they are all takeing pictures of the mess to proof I'm an unnapreciatve girlfriend who abuses him and the house.
I'm telling him and the mum that if im a liar and he's telling the truth let's book a lie detector test and record it, they just say.. I don't need that because your a liar and you need mental help etc.
I feel so confused and worn down, please if anyone has expierince with custody battles please help. I feel like if I had to stand up and talk I'd just cry and breakdown and they will win because I look a liar and they will be calm and collected and say.. see. And use my pain caused from him against me.