I went back to work full time when my DS was 8 months old. He's now over 2 and the guilt is eating me alive every day. He just wants to cuddle and spend time with me and it's hard to explain to him that I have to work.
He goes to nursery full time and I try and devote him my focus in the evening. He is however so irritable and clingy after a day in nursery it's hard to do anything together. Plus when the weather is bad it's difficult to do things outside of the house as most child friendly places are shutting down after 3pm.
When he's off nursery he's delightful most of the time and we have lovely time doing things and just enjoying time together. I really feel like I'm missing out on his childhood and will never get this time back.
In reality I could probably afford cutting a day or two off my work, but then I may feel anxious I'm not saving enough, won't be able to afford fun days out etc.
Any advice please.