DS is just about to turn 14mo and had refused the boob for the past 2 nights. I only feed him before bed and it's only a quick feed. I start working nights in just under 2 weeks and so have made the decision not to feed him tonight on account that he's refused a feed for two days prior and thought that it would be best to end it on his terms so to speak instead of when I need to stop. He seemed OK about it but I could tell he was a bit confused about me not at least getting my boob out but was happy with a cuddle before I put him down and he went to sleep happily and pretty quickly. I thought it would be easier than I'm finding it. I have a lot of emotions and I do feel guilty. I know a lot of mums go for 2 years or more but it won't be possible for us. DC1 stopped BF at 12mo and at the time she was just so distracted and eager to play and get on with her day (the last feed to go was the morning one). For some reason DS prefers to feed at nighttime (he's too distracted in the morningand during the day). I feel a grieving and maybe it's because I'm not planning to have anymore kids, because I'll miss the physical closeness with DS, I'm not sure. I just didn't expect to feel so awful about it. How do other mums deal with the guilt?