Mum guilt, have I hurt my baby

[Amyrose23]

Baby is 5 and half months old and EBF. Baby is fed to sleep and contact naps during the day and falls asleep on me at night before putting into cot.
Last night was rough, baby was up several times and each time I fed her to sleep, transferred into cot and then she woke again crying, this repeated.
By the 5th time I was getting very frustrated so after I transferred baby to crib and she cried I couldn't face getting up so I leaned over crib and did a big shush noise, this startled baby, she was quite for a few minutes and then cried so I did another big shush noise. She stopped crying, I could hear her moving and then eventually went to sleep and slept for about 4 hours straight.

Have I emotionally damaged my baby by not lifting and comforting her. I read not responding to baby crying can cause brain damage?

No, it'll be fine. Try to get some sleep.

Not at all

You have not damaged your baby OP.

Your baby will be absolutely fine get some rest

It's fine. Your shushing might even just be a coincidence because 5.5 months is about when she might naturally start to link up sleep cycles.

You'd know if your baby was really extremely distressed because the cry would change tone

Also, you felt you'd startled your baby but it might have been more like "AAAGH - oh right yeah Mummy's right there. What was I getting worked up about. Zzzzz"

I recall my baby daughter who's now in her late teens feeding for an entire night with only short breaks. By dawn, I reacted in anger by quickly pulling her blanket off when I was lifting her. It's something I've never forgotten even though it seems so minor and I think it was the loss of control which shocked me. You've not traumatized your daughter in any way but you were stressed.

No, you’ve found out that you don’t need to feed her back to sleep. That’s a good thing.