I had my daughter two weeks ago today and I just feel like I'm getting it all wrong! We have lots of cuddles and I obviously feed and change her but that's pretty much it. I feel like its been so hectic since having her that I'm forgetting to entertain/stimulate her. My mum bought me all of these black and white sensory cards and I've not even taken them out of the packet yet! I try and talk to her when she's awake and do the whole "narrating" thing but sometimes I forget. Since having her I've become so anxious and keep getting all these awful thoughts stuck in my head like "what if I drop her down the stairs" etc and sometimes I'm so focused on those that I forget to talk to her/entertain her. Before I was putting some clothes away and she was in her cot, I turned round and she was wide awake staring around and I don't know how long she'd been awake for! I just feel like sometimes I'm leaving her to it and she's going to end up not being attached to me. I'm not breastfeeding now due to multiple reasons and I ended up having a section as she was breech, and it all just seems like it's going wrong or I'm doing the wrong thing. She's not a fussy baby and she only really gets upset if we take too long making her bottle but I'm just so worried. I just feel like I'm a shit mum and I don't know what I'm doing, I genuinely thought I'd take to it better than I have. I just feel so low and tearful all the time, but its not that I don't love her or that I'm not enjoying being a mum its just that I feel like I'm not doing a good job ðŸ˜