im a cm so all my days are spent looking after, nursing, cuddling, playing, feeding, settling and taking care of other peoples children.
I love my job, it means i am able to take and collect my own dd from school.
But just lately(dont know if its down to starting back at school this week) my dd is like a teenager with me, i collect her from school and open my arms for a hug and she meets me with a frown..we get home and she argues with the other children, she is snappy and sarcastic( a trait i guess she got from us) ie: "I said i would like x not y"..in a tone..so still being polite, but with attitude.
i know its not her fault, but as soon as i finish work i dont get to chill for 5 minutes, im putting dinner on for us all, filling drinks up, stacking dishwasher, putting washing in/out, running baths, getting dd changed for bed..yes i know everything we all do, but i dont get space between finisheing work and doing house stuff for 2 minutes to collect my thoughts and get myself sorted.
As soon as the last mindee steps foot out of our house, dd is "Bored", "no one to play with", "what can i do now" etc etc..so im doing house stuff whilst feeling knackerd and feeling guilty that dd no longer has "anyone to play with", so then she gets snappy, i get snappy, she then wont eat, so i get more snappy, dp comes in and sudenly he's the best thing since sliced bread, the kiss and cuddle i neevr got from school is given in abundance to dp, chats about her day(after she "cant remember" what shes done when i ask)
at chilling out time (for dd) before bed we sit and read, watch a dvd etc..but dd bounces of the walls, cahttering running round near the firs so gets told to sit down so many times my head hurts..she still doesnt..then she goes to bed and the same thing happens every night as its done for many monhts now, i feel guilty, wonder what i could have done different and sit on here all night getting nothing done and feeling worse..
sorry looks like a pityful moan really, just having a really rubbish time