Feel so overwhelmed

[Sunshine1996]

I have 2 DC 16 months apart (now 1 and 2.5) and I am struggling. Around 3 months ago I returned to work part time which I’m really enjoying. But at home I feel so guilty to say how hard I find it.
DC are now arguing over toys a lot, 1 year old
climbing everything constantly. The housework I find overwhelming, I put a lot of
pressure to be tidy due to my childhood.
Partner has been working away quite a lot since I returned to work. He is away at the moment and I admit I have been really on edge and worried.
My 2.5 year old is normally an excellent sleeper, sometimes does potter around her room after going to bed. She got up several
times tonight and I did raise my voice at her and told her off. Her whole face crumpled and she burst into tears 😞 I gave her a cuddle and apologised straight away saying I shouldn’t have shouted. Since then 3 times she has cried since I’ve left the room which she has never done. Each time I’ve gone in and read her a story and given her a hug. I just feel so guilty that this is all effecting her. We have played today, gone to the park. But I just feel so awful that my stress is effecting her. I just want a hand hold really, I am so exhausted and just want the best for my children, but I feel like I’m failing them 😞

Solidarity OP! It's tough. You are in the trenches of small children as it were, me too! I often go to bed feeling bad for being a shouty mum 😔 but we are only human. You're doing brilliantly and they know you love them. Think about all the things you did right today. Everyone was fed and watered, they had a stimulating day with fun in it and they had stories and cuddles. You told them you loved them. You brushed their teeth so they don't get cavities. You changed nappies. You remembered one likes their apple cut up a certain way. You put their favourite Tv show on when they needed some chill time. You made sure they ate a vegetable at some point. You did loads right today I'm sure, and all humans lose their temper at times.