Baby blues

[Greenqueen27]

I gave birth to my 4th baby on 1st June, he's now 3 days old and I love him to bits. His pregnancy wasn't planned and a total shock to the system which meant I spent a lot of the time wishing I wasn't pregnant.

I've always suffered with baby blues with each baby and I know it subsides but today I just can't stop crying. I just wish I knew how much I'd love him whilst I was pregnant so that I could have enjoyed my last pregnancy.

i feel so empty when I'm not in the same room as him and I can barely put him down. His birth turned into an emergency due to the cord being around his neck, I was having a pool birth and was quickly made to leave the pool and suddenly the room filled with people screaming different instructions. I can only remember bits of it but I don't know if that is contributing to my mood and my need to be with him.

im hoping it wears off soon, I feel so exhausted from crying.

Oh I really feel for you OP, I had a stressful pregnancy i wasnt really able to enjoy and we also had a cord around the neck situation with suddenly loads of people in the room all shouting different things at me and each other. It took a while for the shock to sink in I think, you're so glad your baby is OK its hard to process the stress. Keep an eye on your mood in case it lasts longer than typical baby blues and be kind to yourself but nothing wrong with wanting to be with your little one, Sending hugs

@stollen123 thank you so much for replying. It's definitely a shock when a birth goes that way, I was so out of it at the time with the pain and gas&air that I don't really remember much which I think makes it worse in a way. I'm just so happy he's here and safe. It's very overwhelming!

Oh OP, I feel for you. Time will most likely help, but do keep an eye on your mood as a PP said. Perhaps reach out to PANDAS. They have an email service which I’ve found helpful in the past - just writing it all down helped. Be kind to yourself and remember that you can cuddle/hold/sniff your little bundle as much as you want. Feel all that lovely oxytocin and cry as much as you need to.