By way of context my ex husband walked out on me and my children the first lockdown 2020. I have my kids 90 percent of time no family help at all. I have a very stressful job and had to fight to buy house off ex as he was about to go bankrupt (I had no idea) found out all his many nights out weren't as innocent as he said. All in all it's been a shocking few years.
He's now moved on with someone else and is very happy having a lovely life my kids find this very hard and question the time he spends with her children. I try to explain their dad loves them more than anything but his GF also has kids so he sees them because they live with her. Mine won't talk to him about it as he makes them feel bad if they do but they cry a lot to me.
My life is pretty crap. I work and look after kids that's it, it's pretty miserable and other than my kids I don't have much to live for.
I absolutely keep it all away from kids they think ex and I are friends etc and I always try to keep it together.
My youngest has a terror of flies and it's becoming worse and worse each night with her refusing to sleep. I've just spent over an hour trying to sort it and in the end broke down and just sobbed on the floor also then upsetting my eldest. I feel like sh@t and the worst mum ever, so guilty.
I'm not sure what I think this post will achieve. Does anyone have any advice for kids terrified of flies? How to cope all on your own with kids and a busy job? I don't think bank holidays help they are very lonely as a single parent.