I have an amazing son who is two years old. I don't have the biggest support (my family lives in another country, doesn't really matter as we don't have much to do with them anyway), however got some friends who help if I ask. But I am feeling overwhelmed, I think I have always had some mental health issues and now, I can't take it. I am feeling like a bad mum, today I didn't play with my son at all, I didn't have the nerves. I suffer from insomnia, so even that he sleeps really well doesn't help me. I am just drained. Like I want him to have a nice life, but I just can't offer it. And deep in my heart I know he deserves better. He is such a cute boy and he deserves someone who can offer him a beautifl start in his life and I am so ashamed I scream so often at him. Afterwards I am feeling sorry, I know he is little and he shouldn't experience that. Sometimes I feel he would be better without me and a nice family. His father chose to not be in the picture.