My DD is 3 in a couple of months time, I am finding things very difficult at the minute, trying my very best to parent in the best way possible. I don’t like shouting etc, I like to try and understand what she is feeling and thinking and helping solve things together but just lately it’s been too much for me and I’ve lost my temper way too many times. I feel as though as much as I try to be nice she doesn’t listen to me and then when I shout she doesn’t listen either. Feel like I’m at a lose. Bedtime was awful tonight, she kept begging for me or her dad to stay with her, which isn’t a regular thing, she usually falls asleep by herself singing and content. Tonight she was getting out of bed and out her room, tried shutting her gate but she was hysterical. Me and her dad took turns trying to make this better, every-time I saw it was getting too much for my partner I stepped in. But the last time I stepped in to help he left the room and started telling me I’m doing this wrong and doing that wrong and I should be doing this etc and I just lost it, I held my daughter in her bed to try and stop her getting out (which I feel awful about) I feel like he could’ve stepped in instead of what felt like him judging me. I was left trying not to cry whilst I sat down by my daughters bed and when she finally was asleep me and my partner argued and now I just feel like I’ve failed as a parent.
Im sorry for such a long post, I’m not sure where it’s going or even what I want from it.