First time mum to 15mo and he is 100mph!!! He is running around and he’s only just started walking - so is still unsteady
I suffer with general and health anxiety. So him tumbling and falling I’m constantly worried about his head, amongst constantly worrying in general!
Today I felt myself struggling. He’d been up a lot crying in the night and was a bit irritable (we think teeth or constipation as he was happier after his poo later today) so I was wiped
Then he refused his nap for a little while and I felt like a failure because I couldn’t get him down, he was tired so he kept like tripping a bit making me so nervous and on edge
and I constantly think I can’t wait until he can walk steadily or sit and like colour in (he really doesn’t sit still so many people tell us this like compared to a lot of other kids he is very active)
It’s good he’s active but of course I’m anxious and I feel like that makes me a bad mum
i find myself snapping and I hate it I beat myself up for it but when I panic or see him stumbling I’m like come here please or no don’t pull on that don’t pull that down etc (tries to pull stuff off and down etc) and I apologise and feel bad I never shout I just use a stern tone
i feel awful and I do feel bad wishing some time away. I just can’t wait until he can communicate a bit more too. Last night I felt awful nothing worked I wish he could’ve said it was his teeth or constipation etc. we’ve just guessed as he can’t talk