Good morning
I have been in a dilemma for a few weeks now going back and fourth on whether to go away or not...for context I am a stay at home mum and am incredibly lucky for this opportunity.
I used to live abroad, and it's where the majority of my friends still are...I am a stay at home mum to 1 child and I'm about to hit a milestone birthday. I know my husband hasn't made any arrangements and so I booked a 6 night trip to go back to the country I used to live in, to celebrate my birthday and see my friends ..I did the same last year but for less days and I feel like this time as my child is older it's harder for me to leave them as they're crying for me etc. (my child will be 3 soon)
Although I'm a stay at home mum (I feel incredibly lucky) I do solo parent a lot of the time as my husband works very late and very long hours. I'm still up 3-4 times a night with my child, I've just found out I need surgery for a prolapse and I just really feel like I need a little break.
I try daily to show up for my child the best I can, but I just feel a little burnt out. Would you go away? It's the fact my child is 3 that's holding me back as I feel like it's such an important age for development. What would you do? They would be left with my husband and my MIL who they are very very close to.
Please be kind. I'm not trying to flaunt anything I'm just feeling abit stuck as I would love to see my friends, but I have intense mum guilt.
Thanks