I love my 5mo so much, she is generally so happy and smiley and an absolute joy.
But...I am just fed up with this stage. I EBF and she is showing allergy symptoms so I've cut out dairy, egg, soy and gluten and recently potato. She's so itchy she wakes herself up so we've been cosleeping as she sleeps better with us but I hate it.
I miss having control over my own body. I'm fed up of not being able to eat what I want (not just lack of choice but it is difficult to find a variety of nice foods), I'm fed up of not being able to wear what I want (all clothing has to be breastfeeding friendly), I'm fed up of getting my boobs out in front of friends/family/strangers, I feel over-touched, at night I just want a bit of my own space in bed.
I've been just wishing for her to be a bit older, I know each age has its own issues but I so want her to be able to eat food without my boobs and sleep on her own. I want my body and my bed back. I'm so fed up. Just need some support or encouragement today, I have a bad cold and it's all just built up and made me feel awful today.