Help. I have PPD.

[Helena1993]

As many have suggested on my other posts... I have PPD. I didn't realize it but it has become very obvious recently. Especially now that I'm doing therapy.
I feel terrible. Completely overwhelmed. Baby is becoming more mobile, pulls up to standing and I have to watch her like a hawk. It feels like I work 24 hrs a day.

There is this constant feeling of doom. I worry all the time and sometimes feel regret about having a baby. I'm worried about the situation in Ukraine turning into another world war, too.
I'm scared to tell my husband about how I feel. I don't want him to think of me as someone who constantly whines.
Other women have it much worse. They don't even have a partner. So why am I feeling this way? I should be grateful for having a healthy 9 month old. But I'm not happy at all even though I'm already taking antidepressants.

How did you overcome PPD?

Honestly? I went back to work and put DS in nursery. I had PPD and post partum rage and the only thing that helped was being able to have time just me.

I was on anti depressants and told the GP who told me the waitlist for therapy was months long. I spoke to the health visitor who got me some counselling session and that helped but finally being able to be me again, at work, helped massively. Although I'm aware this might not be an option for you.

You're absolutely not alone though. PPD is horrible to go through x

Also about Ukraine.

DS was a month old when he invaded and I truly believe this kicked off my PPD as I was so scared. I remember sitting there sobbing on the stairs for hours, about how DS1 was only 1 so wasn't experiencing life, how ds2 was only a month and neither deserved a war death.

I even had intrusive thoughts about who I would save first etc. it was horrendous. Definitely the start of my PPD. An overreaction but a genuine fear at the time.

Sending love

I'll return to work in 9 weeks. But now I'm scared I won't be able to work and take care of my baby afterwards.