Losing my fucking mind

[Monstermoomin]

I just want some sleep.

My baby (5m) is poorly and was just finally doing some stretches, albeit very short and with lots of patting, in the cot after not for ever.

She has not been able to be put down for the past couple of nights, I know she is a baby and ill but I'm so tired.

She has slept all day, been hard to rouse and stay awake so I was bracing myself for a shitty night.

I ended up crying my eyes out last night because she wouldn't sleep and was screaming the place down and basically wanted walking around all night. (Cue me snapping at my OH because I'm so fucking tired and want to desperately sleep).

I have held her all day either in the sling or held, apart from nappy changes she has been on me non stop.

I went to bed early to try to sleep when she went down. She woke up shortly after and won't settle. It is causing significant friction between me and OH because we're both so tired.

I just need to vent because I want sleep. I'm fed up. I also want to stop crying because of being so tired and fed up.

I had 2 of the hardest babies in the world who only ever slept being held or in a rocker chair (not recommended to sleep in). I found the worst thing about sleep deprivation is the anticipation of being woken up after hardly being asleep. My DH and I resorted to shifts to survive and it was much better. I went to bed as soon as he got home for 4 hours (7-11), then he went to bed 11-5ish then I went back to bed for a few hours until he left for work. I found that knowing I was going to have 6 hours sleep a night saved me from doing something drastic. I got some jobs done as well when it was my time to be awake with the baby strapped to me and watched some box sets .

It is very difficult when babies are ill. If it's blocked nose then use a saline spray - the snot gets loose and they sneeze a tonne out so it's good to use before bed.
What about sleeping in buggy too - more upright so nose stays clearer.
Kids olbas oil too and calpol obviously

Over the weekend we just did constant shifts day and night! Never saw each other only to throw the baby at him but we got through it.

Another vote for sleeping in shifts here, it's not the best but it keeps you sane!

I feel for you it sounds awful. Take care of yourself the best you can. Don’t worry about the rows/snipes it will all be forgotten when things are better 😊

Have you tried co-sleeping (following safe co-sleeping guidelines)

Cranio sacral? Mctimoney? Both can do wonders for small babies who scream a lot. Good luck OP it’s so hard at these times x

Thanks for all the suggestions.

I've got saline spray so have been using that but not much luck.

We're unable to cosleep anymore unfortunately due to rolling and smooshing into the mattress.

It was a worse night than I anticipated and I've been on the floor all day.

Bring on half term 😣