Just wanted to share some wisdom to any other new or even second time mothers.
Since I had the little one and had recovered, I wanted to go to baby group and had looked into it about three months ago and intended to go every week. And every week, I would make an excuse not to go. Baby has a feed at that time, I didn't want to wake her up or even just saying I forgot about it.
I developed PPD later at around 3.5 months if not sooner and the thoughts of baby group filled me with dread and the even bigger dread of telling my partner my weekly excuse until last week I told him why. Completely supportive and said he had a feeling it was that and just to go when I'm ready.
I went, and little one had such a good time, I almost cried with guilt for not bringing her sooner then had to remember this was a big step for me and that it's okay, little one will live.
If any of you are like this, take it a day at a time. If you miss this week, there is next week. Also, the worst part is getting yourself there, once you see your little one having a ball, you won't care about anything else.
I myself have a way to go, my biggest downfall is not getting out of the house some days but once I'm out its completely OK and I don't understand why I was so nervous.
Hope you're all well x