He’s 2 in April. His dads just started working night shifts so I’m doing everything with him and trying to run my own business. I’ve been really poorly this week and have been up every morning mega early with little one, 5am yesterday then I had to be at work for 7:30 this morning but get him up and drop him off to his nanny and grandads. It’s just been a stressful week and I’ve felt so run down I’ve just really needed a few hours to chill tonight and he’s just been screaming, kicking, hitting me for the past 2 hours. He went down for bed absolutely fine then just woke up crying. After trying to settle him for the 5th time I got a bit angry and I was a little rough when getting him out of bed, I didn’t hurt him but I think I scared him a little bit. I just feel like shit now. Like somethings wrong with me, I know I’ve just been under a lot of pressure trying to juggle everything and I think maybe I’m just getting a little bit burnt out. I love him so so so much I’m trying my best I just feel like an awful mummy. He just wanted my comfort and instead I just yelled and probably scared him 😞
I really feel like I don’t deserve him.