Hi all,
I posted previously about sleep but am back as thing have got worse not better as I'd hoped! Think I'm just looking for reassurance again really.
Last week and a half we've had max 1.5 hour stretches at night, sometimes only 45 min. Naps are 45 min max unless in the car or constant pram walking. I'm exhausted (as is LO!). I'm doing shush pat to try and help him through what I assume is a sleep regression but his wake-ups are clockwork.
He's so grouchy all day. He's ok for maybe 10-20 min after a nap but then just cries at me. I'm anxious when alone with him that he'll kick off and am dreading each day at the moment. Dreading the nights too. I'm crying every day and I just don't know if any of this is normal. I miss feeling relaxed and calm at home, I love him completely but I feel so sad that I am struggling.
DH is brilliant and helps as much as he can, including splitting nights. He works though so it is all on me 830-6 every day. I feel so sad that I don't enjoy this.
Please tell me I'll sleep again (I don't expect all night! He's never done that, his best ever is about 4.5 hours once, usually every 3 and he's got a big appetite. I'd take every 3 hours!). Please tell me I'll enjoy him again. I'm not being the parent I want to be.
I feel so guilty even writing this :(. My mum isn't around and I desperately wish I could call her for advice. I do go out everyday and do groups/meet ups, which do help. But once I'm home again I feel so overwhelmed with sadness and worry that I can't relax with him or even once he's gone down as he wakes so frequently. If relevant he's bottle fed and we don't co sleep as I desperately need to feel a little space and seperation.